Above: a commission for a girl in Oklahoma City.
It was a “very” fairly productive week. I got a lot done in the end but it seems like it was all done TODAY. I’m not sure what I did with myself earlier the week.
Sometimes I can spend a whole day painting and actually be FURTHER BEHIND than I was when I started. I know it’s the same for writers… I guess you have to just keep working through it, relying on experience that things WILL get done (eventually), and the backwards days are just part of the this type of career… it’s not necessarily bad, it can just play tricks with your head sometimes. You know??!
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You know I was thinking this today that things will get done eventually because they always do. But before that I was all nervous about it like good grief, I am not accomplishing anything. It IS a trick in your head and usually not true. Then I told myself that things are actually going very well indeed, in fact better than I expected, and imagined NOT being nervous and I remember calming down quite a bit. I can stress myself out quite easily without anything even happening at all, I am just sitting there working things over in my mind.
I can SO relate to this feeling. I have a studio full of half finished paintings. Even though I am constantly creating, I get that feeling of overwhelm when I look at those works in progress. I guess it’s time to begin tackling them.
That commission is so cute. I love the colors.
There is so much I don’t know I don’t know how, even, to answer the question.
hmm.. yes.. like Catherine says.. I can get stressed out over self imposed deadlines but actually be quite ok. I do like your naming o “backward” days. Maybe as artists we work to an unseen tide, unanswerable to the clock or calendar.